
Originally Posted by
Ediros
Hello,
I am a young male, currently in College, 23. I have never before had a girlfriend, not because I didn't want to, far from it. However, I have never felt the urge to have one, I thought it was too much trouble for what it's worth. I mean, dates, money, being a gentleman, coming up with initiative for what? A pussy? A chance to get laid? I tried a couple of times, but I have never felt it was something that brought me happiness, seemed more like a chore. Also, rejected when being young and trying to impress girls, only made me even more confused. Before the age of twenty I have never found porn fascinating or that I needed it, it changed a couple years back, though at least I am not addicted to it. Still thinking of going of monk mode, although I hate the bloody hormones responsible for the urge.
Anyway, I also have got a family, which never divorced and even the neighbours who also never divorced. I thought they were good role models to me. Father non-alcoholic, hard working person. Mother, a kind and caring soul, who yelled at times, but never really meant it. I looked up to them, but for the past few years, I have been asked 'when will you get a girlfriend?'. At first, I thought, there was something wrong with me. I tried being nice, caring guy, like the society told. How my mother told me, that I should never hit a girl, no matter what. It never worked out and only left me not having any hope of finding a girlfriend, much less a wife, a bit depressed too.
Then, I came across MGTOW and got red pilled. It started off with the reddit 'Where did all the good men go?', from there I came across MGTOW reddit and things went from there. I listened to Sandman, Karen Straughan and was shocked about what they were saying. A part of me, still wants to deny this, that the woman are not as bad currently as MGTOW paints them to be. It's hard to accept that, the woman these days are ugly on the inside and they don't care about men, not all of them, but most of them. The fact that the divorces became a massive way to earn crazy amounts of money (Divorce Corp movie) and even in my home country, Poland, over 40% marriages end up in divorce, middle of the Europe. There are exceptions, such as: Karen Straughan, but I am not holding my breath of finding the 'one'.
I guess, what I am trying to say that being hard-wired to be a 'nice guy' left a lasting impact on me. Even now, I still have got trouble accepting, just how messed up the current society is or that the MGTOW philosophy is right. I also, find myself asking questions, how should I act when interacting with women? Being a 'bad boy' is out of the question, I wouldn't be able to keep it up for long. Should I act like a Terminator an emotionless machine? Do I act like a robot towards all the woman? The cashiers? My coworkers? Should I never smile? It is a bit overwhelming and I could use a bit of advice.
With regards,
Ediros