
Originally Posted by
nameless
Thanks for all the advice guys, I really appreciate all of it.
I can't use the poor finances card even though it's a good one. The problem is I am employed for my expertise with money so saying I'm struggling personally with it would not be a good thing.
I also can't bring myself to say I'm "gay", or something similar (or worse like "I'm actually a trans woman"). I feel like it would be a self-induced attack on my very being. I'd rather keep my self-dignity than my job by supplicating in that way.
So I've thought about this and my plan is as follows:
1. Pretend it was never brought up. There's a chance she might forget about it or take it as a hint.
2. If she brings it up again, tell her that I feel it's important to commit yourself 100% to a relationship and that I'm unable to do that with the ongoing pandemic. I don't want to begin something if I can't do it right and now is not a good time, even though her recommendation looks like a great girl.
3. In case she still applies pressure after the above, just keep declining, "no thanks, not right now", "no, I'm sorry, I just can't". Not afraid of this because there's no way she can convince me to go down a path I don't want to go down on.
The biggest problem is she's somewhat of an "alpha" female so chances are she already promised something to that girl/her mother. If that's the case, she's going to lose face because she'll be someone who doesn't end up doing what she said she could/would. If that happens, that's on her. Not my problem.
I don't hate my boss, I've only worked for her for about three years, and then again you can never truly know someone. She treats me pretty well so I have zero desire in harming her over this in any way (although as weird as it sounds... she's different around me, almost likes she attracted to me. I know what it's like when women come on to you, and I get the same vibes here). Technically, I'm flattered in a way (even though there's always ulterior motives). But with that in mind, can you imagine if the roles were reversed? And an older, male boss went to his subordinate, younger, female employee and said he'd have a great match for her?
In my view, it shouldn't be a big deal, but society has twisted everything horribly.
And that is I why I've said to hell with women. I don't even need to have sex. I've reached a point where there's literally nothing a woman can do to control me. I just live my life doing what brings me inner fulfillment. The only women I care about anymore or have any contact with are my immediate family (mother, etc.). I would do anything for them. They're as pure hearted and real as it gets. The only thing that gives "unicorns" any sort of credibility in my mind. But they certainly don't exist amongst the younger population anymore, that's for sure.