I'm retired from dating, and now I live just for myself. What a relief. MGTOW has been the right choice for me. So that should shut off any possible crushes on any woman, right? Wrong. I have this ridiculous crush on my French teacher. There's this online web site/app where you can find someone to help you with a language. Getting fluent at French is an important goal of mine, so I went for it. I've been studying the language for years, and I already have a decent intermediate level, but I want to get better.
So I went for it. This young women in Morocco has been helping with my French, and it's totally working. I've gotten a lot better just in the couple months worth of lessons. However, I didn't plan to develop a crush on her. Well, crap. I find myself thinking about her all the time. All that simpy blue-pilled crap is still programmed in, triggered by this euphoric feeling. I think of simpy BS like going on a cruise with her and getting together with her. Spurting jizz into her cunt feels like the ultimate goal in life.
Even if I were still in blue pill world, any relation with her would be totally impractical. She lives in a country far, far away from me, and she's also way younger. Our senses of humor just match really well. The lessons with her are totally fun, and are helping me to get closer to my goal of speaking totally fluent French. That was my goal that brought me to her. I never planned to crush on her.
I thought via MGTOW I had cured myself from crushing on anyone. I guess not. I know better than this shit. But that doesn't stop a ridiculous blue-pill-style plot for playing in my head of a super romantic story where we get together and all is wonderful.
That euphoric feeling is like someone slipped into my room at night and injected me with opiates. How do I deal with this? MGTOW is supposed to shut off crushes. I guess it doesn't. Fuck. I need to jizz into a high quality flesh light or escort. Shit.