My relationship history started at 15 when I dated a girl who I met thanks to my relatives. It was a long distance relationship. I burned up the phone bill calling out of state since long distance was billed per minute back then. I came to see her by walking in the pouring rain from my relatives house couple of streets away only to find another guy sitting next to her in the kitchen. She behaved like it didn't matter although she had a pinch of guilt on her face and the guy was all macho acting nice trying to invite me to come along with them and play pool. I kindly denied and was just so heart broken. My first "girlfiend" and that's the result. Little did I know that was the first red pill I swallowed without even knowing. The way I felt that day set the course for the rest of relationships. Although I had a couple more long term ones, I never felt the need go further with them.
Then I met this Taiwanese girl in college that I really fell for at first sight. We dated for 3.5 years while she was working here but then things declined down hill as she had to go back to Taiwan because she was laid off and visa requirements told her so. I actually sold everything I had here in the states and moved to Taiwan to teach English. Although the money was good I was miserable in that job. That was the only way I could stay in Taiwan (teach English). I actually had hopes that this would mean something more. We ended it on Christmas day. She got married a year later to a Taiwanese guy. I learned that love is not everything and it's only a temporary hook. I have no resentments because learning female nature led me to understand myself better and focus on making my life better.
I experience blue pill everywhere, movies, music, tv, etc. I just stop watching and watch less and less to avoid exposure to blue pill toxicity. I feel empathetic for the men when I hear people at work are getting married. If they only knew better. My last girlfriend of 17 months definitely nailed the coffin on marriage when she slipped and said all she wanted was money and an immigrant visa through marriage so she can be with her family in California. I broke up with her saying I will not get married. She didn't get what she wanted so she stopped talking with me and I am full of joy that happened. It makes no sense to circle around the idea of marriage when I have already swallowed too many red pills to ever go back to the plantation.
About me. I am in the medical field, allied health. I help save lives directly when someone has trouble breathing. I enjoy motorcycling, mountain biking, reading, and learning how to experience a better life one day at a time.
Thank you all for the experience and knowledge of MGTOW. Another life saved.