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    Hi everyone, here's my intro

    Hi everyone, I'm a 33 years of guy from Italy. I'm relatively new to all the red pill and mgtow world,
    and discovered this forum few days ago... sorry for the late for my intro, but I'm quite slow at writing in english.

    Looking back at my past life, I have always been a huge blue-pill guy, I always believed in love but never had a gf util my 20s, and I suffered because I was alone.
    I thought that having a gf and loving someone was the solution to every problem, and that life would have been perfect, like in the movies.

    There were some girls, There was some friendzones, I was an orbiter for some time... Nothing special at the beginning.
    The I met this girl, I was 25 and she 18 but we lived about 300km away. We fell in love quickly, with all the problems because the distance.
    At the beginning everything was awesome... we saw each other once or twice a month (we were both studying and we both had no car).
    But things were great, and I was really happy for the first time in my life, because of love. The power of love that everything fix!
    This girl was really beautiful and kinky, plus she wasn't interested in money at all, and she always wanted to pay her half of everything.
    We talked a lot by phone, many hours a day and always texting the other times, from morning to evening...
    I think she really loved me: every time we we had to go back our homes after spending the weekend together, she always cried a lot.
    I always gave 100% for her: I helped her with her school stuff and with every her needs, because that's what a real man does.
    Then when we both finished school, she found a good job in her city, so we decided to live together after ~5 year of long distance,
    so I moved to her city, far from my family and friends, we rented a house and I started working as freelance. Finally together.
    And we lived happily ever after.

    Well... no. That's the story seen with my old bluepill goggles. looking back now, I can now see many many huge red flags.

    She was very loving and sweet, but with time some sides of her came out... most is nothing special, classic women shits.
    But in a more subtle way, she was trying to get me away from my friends and family. She always had something to criticize about everyone.
    Even if my family accepted her from the first day, she always had something to tell about my parents, while she had a very bad relationship
    with her mother and no friends at all (two huge red flags. Her family members were huge dickheads, plus her mother had an affair).
    We were always talking at phone, too much, and she got angry if I couldn't, or if I went out with my pals.
    There're so many stories...I'll tell you a couple. Once I had study for an university exam... and she started questioning our relationship exactly in those days.
    It hurt me when she said she wanted to break, so we talked more and more instead of studying... never did the exam. what an idiot I was.
    Then, the week we rented the apartment, yet another argument started with her parents, so her mother kicked us out of house (they never liked me too).
    Our apartment was empty, I wasn't prepared to move in that day but I had. We slept on the floor on cardboards for a week while everyday we ran shop by
    shop buying literally anything. Luckily my family has a small appliance store, so they gifted us some stuff (microwave, washing machine, tv...)
    But nothing received from her family. I thought that overcoming such bad a moment together would reinforce our bond... And So it did.
    For just two month.
    One day she dropped again the same shit about our relationship was not working (by text, I was visiting my parents).
    Before living together the distance was the problem, but now??? back home I took her phone while she was sleeping, and the problem was: Mr.Chad Coworker, expert in pump&dump.
    She texted with him for about 2 weeks, and when I wasn't around they met once.
    She confessed, she realized that was a mistake, felt sooo guilt, and started hating Mr.Chad because he was a manipulator and made the same with other girls...
    Yea, she was trying cleanse her conscience, and was very very sorry, I can't count how many times she hugged me in tears asking me to forgive her.
    and. I. did.... oh crap. I really "forgave" her, and even if I didn't trust her 100% anymore, I stayed. And home life has gone on normally.
    For six months. One evening I secretly followed her at her first "Girls only dinner" because it seemed me that there was something strange.
    And found that it was a "Mr.Chad#2 dinner" (another coworker)... Just a dinner this time, but she did it secretly, and they texted some stuff.
    She came home at 2AM, and told me a bunch of craps about the evening with the girls. Next day I packed all my stuff in my car, and went back to my city without looking back.
    She found an half empty house when returned from work. She texted "I'm sorry, I didn't want to hurt you, I'm an asshole. At least I wanted to say goodbye to you". WHAT?!?!?
    Then she phoned the Chad#2 and the next days they were fucking on the bed I half paid, in the house I half paid.
    I lost my house (rented luckily, but I paid rent 6 month to quit), I had to pay a lawyer to switch the household utilities to her name,
    I lost almost all the furniture I paid for, and the stuff my family gifted to us, I lost the new friends and customers in her damned city.

    I see I was much luckier than many other people... no abuses, no divorce, no children, no alimony... but all this left me with a deep wound.

    I returned to my family, and everyone here was close to me and helped me. The first months were black. All day spent playing videogames or doing nothing.
    My heart was broken, I missed my love, and every night I dreamed her and I cried. I spent days isolated from everyone, without even talking, making my family worry.
    Then I started a new job, and I started putting all my energy into it. I worked 14 hours a day for months, weekends too. Working helped me keeping my mind busy.
    and I became good at my job. I started earning good money, and working on increasingly cool stuff.
    Suddenly, the pain was gone... and looking back I realized how many things I managed to do in such a short time.
    I made more progress in the last year than in the previous 7 years when I was with her. I was happy for that, but I always missed love.
    I don't remember how (imageboards maybe), but I met the red pill online, then I saw the movie. I started reading RP stuff because I wanted to learn how
    to "play" with girls, to just pump&dump and have my "revenge". Full redpill rage mode. I started seeing women differently: no man I met was happy with the marriage,
    everyone after some time got bored of the partner, smart guys wasting time behind stupid women, plus cheating everywhere...
    I realized that it's not worth it and just "playing" with them requires anyway a huge investment of time and money.
    Reading redpill sites, I came in touch with mgtow (on Reddit mainly) and gradually I gave up redpill stuff, moving to mgtow only.
    I tried to take women out of the equation of my life and... This was enlightenment. There was no more concern.
    I no longer had to worry about how to appear, to demonstrate something, to show off, to compete, to do anything to attract women.
    I realized that I could be a free man, living for myself, instead of a slave forced to work to make money for women to spend, without any security.
    They're not any prize, I am the prize, and I am not on the market anymore.
    And that's the new me. I broke with that girl 2 years ago, become mgtow less than 1 year ago, and my life has never been so happy, peaceful and calm.

    (My english is not the best...I hope I haven't made too many spelling\grammar mistakes...feel free to point at them, so I can learn better)

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    Re: Hi everyone, here's my intro

    Quote Originally Posted by FriedrichVonGlower View Post
    Hi everyone, I'm a 33 years of guy from Italy. I'm relatively new to all the red pill and mgtow world,
    and discovered this forum few days ago... sorry for the late for my intro, but I'm quite slow at writing in english.

    Looking back at my past life, I have always been a huge blue-pill guy, I always believed in love but never had a gf util my 20s, and I suffered because I was alone.
    I thought that having a gf and loving someone was the solution to every problem, and that life would have been perfect, like in the movies.

    There were some girls, There was some friendzones, I was an orbiter for some time... Nothing special at the beginning.
    The I met this girl, I was 25 and she 18 but we lived about 300km away. We fell in love quickly, with all the problems because the distance.
    At the beginning everything was awesome... we saw each other once or twice a month (we were both studying and we both had no car).
    But things were great, and I was really happy for the first time in my life, because of love. The power of love that everything fix!
    This girl was really beautiful and kinky, plus she wasn't interested in money at all, and she always wanted to pay her half of everything.
    We talked a lot by phone, many hours a day and always texting the other times, from morning to evening...
    I think she really loved me: every time we we had to go back our homes after spending the weekend together, she always cried a lot.
    I always gave 100% for her: I helped her with her school stuff and with every her needs, because that's what a real man does.
    Then when we both finished school, she found a good job in her city, so we decided to live together after ~5 year of long distance,
    so I moved to her city, far from my family and friends, we rented a house and I started working as freelance. Finally together.
    And we lived happily ever after.

    Well... no. That's the story seen with my old bluepill goggles. looking back now, I can now see many many huge red flags.

    She was very loving and sweet, but with time some sides of her came out... most is nothing special, classic women shits.
    But in a more subtle way, she was trying to get me away from my friends and family. She always had something to criticize about everyone.
    Even if my family accepted her from the first day, she always had something to tell about my parents, while she had a very bad relationship
    with her mother and no friends at all (two huge red flags. Her family members were huge dickheads, plus her mother had an affair).
    We were always talking at phone, too much, and she got angry if I couldn't, or if I went out with my pals.
    There're so many stories...I'll tell you a couple. Once I had study for an university exam... and she started questioning our relationship exactly in those days.
    It hurt me when she said she wanted to break, so we talked more and more instead of studying... never did the exam. what an idiot I was.
    Then, the week we rented the apartment, yet another argument started with her parents, so her mother kicked us out of house (they never liked me too).
    Our apartment was empty, I wasn't prepared to move in that day but I had. We slept on the floor on cardboards for a week while everyday we ran shop by
    shop buying literally anything. Luckily my family has a small appliance store, so they gifted us some stuff (microwave, washing machine, tv...)
    But nothing received from her family. I thought that overcoming such bad a moment together would reinforce our bond... And So it did.
    For just two month.
    One day she dropped again the same shit about our relationship was not working (by text, I was visiting my parents).
    Before living together the distance was the problem, but now??? back home I took her phone while she was sleeping, and the problem was: Mr.Chad Coworker, expert in pump&dump.
    She texted with him for about 2 weeks, and when I wasn't around they met once.
    She confessed, she realized that was a mistake, felt sooo guilt, and started hating Mr.Chad because he was a manipulator and made the same with other girls...
    Yea, she was trying cleanse her conscience, and was very very sorry, I can't count how many times she hugged me in tears asking me to forgive her.
    and. I. did.... oh crap. I really "forgave" her, and even if I didn't trust her 100% anymore, I stayed. And home life has gone on normally.
    For six months. One evening I secretly followed her at her first "Girls only dinner" because it seemed me that there was something strange.
    And found that it was a "Mr.Chad#2 dinner" (another coworker)... Just a dinner this time, but she did it secretly, and they texted some stuff.
    She came home at 2AM, and told me a bunch of craps about the evening with the girls. Next day I packed all my stuff in my car, and went back to my city without looking back.
    She found an half empty house when returned from work. She texted "I'm sorry, I didn't want to hurt you, I'm an asshole. At least I wanted to say goodbye to you". WHAT?!?!?
    Then she phoned the Chad#2 and the next days they were fucking on the bed I half paid, in the house I half paid.
    I lost my house (rented luckily, but I paid rent 6 month to quit), I had to pay a lawyer to switch the household utilities to her name,
    I lost almost all the furniture I paid for, and the stuff my family gifted to us, I lost the new friends and customers in her damned city.

    I see I was much luckier than many other people... no abuses, no divorce, no children, no alimony... but all this left me with a deep wound.

    I returned to my family, and everyone here was close to me and helped me. The first months were black. All day spent playing videogames or doing nothing.
    My heart was broken, I missed my love, and every night I dreamed her and I cried. I spent days isolated from everyone, without even talking, making my family worry.
    Then I started a new job, and I started putting all my energy into it. I worked 14 hours a day for months, weekends too. Working helped me keeping my mind busy.
    and I became good at my job. I started earning good money, and working on increasingly cool stuff.
    Suddenly, the pain was gone... and looking back I realized how many things I managed to do in such a short time.
    I made more progress in the last year than in the previous 7 years when I was with her. I was happy for that, but I always missed love.
    I don't remember how (imageboards maybe), but I met the red pill online, then I saw the movie. I started reading RP stuff because I wanted to learn how
    to "play" with girls, to just pump&dump and have my "revenge". Full redpill rage mode. I started seeing women differently: no man I met was happy with the marriage,
    everyone after some time got bored of the partner, smart guys wasting time behind stupid women, plus cheating everywhere...
    I realized that it's not worth it and just "playing" with them requires anyway a huge investment of time and money.
    Reading redpill sites, I came in touch with mgtow (on Reddit mainly) and gradually I gave up redpill stuff, moving to mgtow only.
    I tried to take women out of the equation of my life and... This was enlightenment. There was no more concern.
    I no longer had to worry about how to appear, to demonstrate something, to show off, to compete, to do anything to attract women.
    I realized that I could be a free man, living for myself, instead of a slave forced to work to make money for women to spend, without any security.
    They're not any prize, I am the prize, and I am not on the market anymore.
    And that's the new me. I broke with that girl 2 years ago, become mgtow less than 1 year ago, and my life has never been so happy, peaceful and calm.

    (My english is not the best...I hope I haven't made too many spelling\grammar mistakes...feel free to point at them, so I can learn better)
    Ha, I wish you could have loaded up your car with all of the nice gifts from your parents.

    And this is only one of your stories! It sounds like it was the last story, the one that got you fed up with women.

    Do you have hobbies or activities that you enjoy?
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    The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation.
    - Henry David Thoreau

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    Re: Hi everyone, here's my intro

    Welcome to the forum from a fellow Italian (American)!
    "Don't follow in my footsteps. I stepped in something."

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    Re: Hi everyone, here's my intro

    Quote Originally Posted by Joetech View Post
    Welcome to the forum from a fellow Italian (American)!
    Thank you! Grazie!

    Quote Originally Posted by Unboxxed View Post
    Ha, I wish you could have loaded up your car with all of the nice gifts from your parents.
    It was impossible to put everything in the car. Luckily I managed to take my higher value things and my work tools (workstations, screens, laptops...)
    in the end it was not a problem for the money I lost. They allowed me to open my eyes, so it was the money I spent best.

    Quote Originally Posted by Unboxxed View Post
    And this is only one of your stories! It sounds like it was the last story, the one that got you fed up with women.
    Yes, it was the last one, seven years long. It's like I've lived those years only at 20% of my potential, felt like slowed down and wasting time. Never again.

    Quote Originally Posted by Unboxxed View Post
    Do you have hobbies or activities that you enjoy?
    I'm a tech guy, I love all every tech 'toys'. I work in IT and fortunately my job is my biggest hobby. I like computers, electronics, video games, science fiction...
    I love reading too, but I have less and less time than I would like (The last ones were Tesla and Asimov).

    I went back to studying mathematics. I never liked it at school, but now that I'm doing it for myself, I discovered how beautiful math is. It really opens your mind.
    And it gave me a great boost in work. I'm studying calculus and algebra, and then I'd like to move to machine learning and AI.

    I would also like to travel around the world, maybe next summer.
    Our world is so big and beautiful and human knowledge is so vast ... life would be wasted without discovering, seeing and learning from everything around us.
    That's what I'm in love with now.

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    Re: Hi everyone, here's my intro

    Welcome friend.
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    Re: Hi everyone, here's my intro

    And another Welcome!

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    Welcome. And well done for going your own way.

    Women will always make demands on how you spend your time, and let this be a lesson to lurkers. If a woman tells you who you should and how you should spend your time, she is setting you up for failure by removing all your social connections so you have to be more reliant on her.

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    Re: Hi everyone, here's my intro

    Welcome to the club and I can completely understand you once being heavy on the blue pill coming from a country like Italy, being one of the three biggest romantic tourist traps in the world along with France and Spain. European chicks...they sneaky as hell but I gotta give them a sliver of credit, they're clever. They're not outwardly boastful with the feminist fuckery like the majority of American and Canadian girls but they have their ways as well and they can give you as much misery as well. Nice to see you've managed to gain full control of your life.


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