Yes, I can see it since I do it too even vocalising the internal dialogue. I'd like to think that at least I get a sensible conversation that way but oft-times my mind doesn't agree and still wants to vere-off into creative ifs, buts and maybe's.
Some MGTOW report that in accepting things how they are (rather than how we wished they were) due to having discussed the nature of the beast, accepted it and thereby tamed it somewhat, they get to 'shrug the monkey off their back' and I have a theory that they lose the 10,000 yard stare that we can all develope and smile at life a bit more and that is why (in my theory) that many MGTOW report that they seem to become attractive to not only the usual suspects but to ordinary folks who would've been put-off by the previous demeanour from even saying "hello".
In an older extinct forum I posted that thanks to MGTOW and realising that I wasn't so alone and that "its not me, its them but I play a part in that" that "I was no longer at war" because thats what everyday had felt like.
Anyway, I still got sucker-punched but at least a small bit of the world was a bit friendlier but one such punch was getting accidentally diagnosed with hypertension which was me being at war with myself dues to basically not getting enough good nutrition. A change of diet to a more nutritious one (and less alcohol) made another biiiiig difference to the old 'internal peace conference'.
I reckon that folks can play a much bigger part in our own suffering than we give ourselves credit for.
Check-out everybody elses demeanours and '10,000 yard stares' and I bet the majority look like they're suffering, just about still game or pretending.
When I see them I feel a bit joyful and thats not to delight in their suffering or shadenfreud but to know that at least we sussed-out the script a bit and can conduct ourselves away from that shit.
I'm not trying to say that any of this is so in your or anyone elses case but just that I've been there in the past and in retrospect I didn't have to go far to look my enemy and the source of whats wrong with the in the eye.
All I had to do was look in the mirror.