So my mom and I got into a fight and are not speaking to one another. It started before I went to work and she got mad at me for leaving out the toothpaste and said she wasn't my maid (honestly where the hell does she get this stuff from?) and I flipped out because she typically does this a lot. I will forget to do something or I will forget to put something back and she'll get mad. So I finally snapped and said "Oh great this again. You always do this!" pretty much she went on a rant about how I appreciate nothing she does and acted like me wanting to move out was a crime.
A day or two ago I mentioned that my New Years Resolution was to move out and get a place on my own. She at first seemed okay with it and now I am starting to think she provoked the whole argument because I'm beginning to see a pattern and at first I thought I was crazy but the more and more I think about it the more it makes sense. First she provokes me then I snap then she paints herself as the victim and I feel bad. Literally I'm just starting to realize this, I mean not only that but I started noticing more and more that she'll get on me for not having a license and all that but the moment I say "Fine I'll take the driving test." she'll make an excuse and this another thing I've noticed she'll "encourage" me to get a license and "suggest" that I move out then the moment I start thinking about it something happens that makes it more difficult and I put it off.
I mean part of me wants to chalk it up to paranoia but literally a lot of my mother's behavior now that I've looked at not as a son but as a MGTOW is clearly very controlling I mean it's really fucked up the more I think about it. She controls everything and is always telling me what to do never mind that I work the night shift as soon as I'm home from work after working for nine hours she'll typically ask me to do something. Not once has she ever shown an ounce of respect for my own job. I mean it's okay if I'm a little late for work but she gets pissed if she is.
I'm just done I don't care anymore I am going to move out no matter what and take control of my life. It was only a matter of time before I had to face the truth.