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    I'm home!

    Greetings gents. I'm a 30-something, single, never married, no kids newcomer. I've been a long time lurker in the various MGTOW/Red Pill designated corners of the internet. I discovered this site while searching for a new forum to conduct my routine lurking activities on. In all my years of being red pill schooled, I never took the official step to put my story out there. Needless to say, all these years of digesting content and comparing notes with my day to day reality have lead me to come up with conclusions and observations. It feels like I've been carrying some mental/emotional weight, which beckons to be disburdened. Therefore, I'm rather excited to take this moment to disburden such troublesome cargo. Though it might not be that entertaining of a read, I am none the less pleased to lay it all out on the table, and present my contribution for whatever it's worth. In any case, enough word clouding, here goes...

    Relationship history:
    *This is my second draft, because I had no idea how long I'd be able to ramble on this subject.* Ive always been a quiet type of guy, which naturally limits access to female attention. Until I eventually met my first girlfriend, the only females that I interacted with were the ones that approached me. Obviously, due to my limited social skills, those occurrences were few and far between. I met my first girlfriend at work (yeah, I know: Pen, company ink, etc.). I was 23 at the time (2005), and she was early 30's, though my memory is blurry at this point. Initially, I was simply chatting with her, as I was actually making an honest effort to work on said social skills at that time (which I felt were starting to gain good momentum). Apparently, she was more receptive than I picked up on, and viewed my attention as more than small talk. On my end, I thought we were acquaintances, or work friends, at best. We exchanged numbers, and proceeded to meet after a work, a few times. After about our third hang, she took it up a notch, and let me know how she personally felt about me, and I was open to date anyway. Therefore, we made it official.
    Looking back, it makes sense that she took a lot of initiative in planning stuff, paying for things, driving, as she was post-wall, and I was probably higher SMV anyway. She suffered from depression, was tremendously clingy, and was freaking me out with all sorts of heavy insinuation about wanting to be together long term. On our last excursion, her ways were pushing me to the breaking point, so I decided to drop the bomb on her, and end our 3 month relationship, as we were heading home. I know it was a dick move (and bad timing) to chose that moment to break up with her, but that's just how trapped I felt. We actually hung out a few times afterward, and talked at work.

    In 2007, I met my second and final girlfriend through mutual friends. I was 25, her, 21. As my luck would have it, she was bipolar. At the time, she was staying with her parents, but didn't get along with them. When she got kicked out of the house, I made my blue pill mistake by letting her stay with me. We clashed endlessly. Whenever I got home from work, she would pick arguments for her own amusement, mostly comparing me to her previous boyfriends/friend's boyfriends. By the way, she was going to college/working part time, and worked that angle to the fullest extent. Needless to say, I supported her financially. This granted her the opportunity to be a sit around my pad and be lazy. All she ever did was stalk her friend's/my social media for ammunition.
    Eventually she cheated on me, 1 year into the relationship. Of course she blamed me as the reason. Instead of cutting her loose, I forgave her, like an idiot. After 3 years of volatility and drama, we split "amicably", and went our separate ways. She wanted to play the whole "stay friends" angle, in order to extract further resources from me. Like an idiot, I fell for that scheme, as well. She got the benefits of boyfriend resources, without the relationship (yeah I know, I still cringe whenever I think about it). When she took it too far, I simply cut her off. Conveniently, I never heard from her again.

    Enter the Red Pill:
    A couple months after my ex and I split, I started hanging out with a guy who turned out to be a PUA. He showed me YouTube videos from various PUA's, and I was just thoroughly annoyed. Even then, I felt indignant of having to jump through hoops for random lazy, stuck up thots. At this time (2012), I was binging Breaking Bad, and would end up effectively disgusted every time that harpy Skylar would reeee. One fateful day, I happened to be watching some utterly tripe drivel that the hack Whitney Cummings was attempting to pass off as stand up comedy. These isolated incidents led me to google "man bashing", and I eventually happened upon Karen Straughan. Initially, her MRA-themed content resonated with me. From there, I discovered Barbarosa and Stardusk. Needless to say, that was the "aha!" moment where I experienced that glorious Red Pill revelation. From there, I took to the content like a fish to water. Naturally, I discovered Sandman in 2013, and the rest was history.
    In the succeeding years, I've witnessed the community grow exponentially, with new channels popping up on YouTube practically every day. Due to red pill rage, increasing social isolation and anxiety, I've naturally gone the way of the monk. I view my past relationships as "pre-2010 smartphone/social media" era. Therefore, I shudder to think what it would be like to interact with females in the post-2010 Instagram/Tinder era. All the red pill content (and resulting red pill rage) have altered my perspective indefinitely. Like they say, you can't unlearn that stuff. Whenever I make the mistake of lurking any of the NSFW subreddits, the utter displays of unchained female attention seeking serve as reminder that relationships aren't worth it. In addition to women's hypergamy and Briffault's Law, I'm thoroughly put off by the sheer cuckoldry that guys put themselves through. These simps merely stand by as their girlfriends and wives put up nudes (even cheer them on) for strangers to masturbate to. If this part of the package deal of LTR's, count me out. I guess I'm too old-fashioned for that sort of modern, empowered, feminist rah-rah-rah ass-hattery. Currently I'm working on transitioning from monk to "ghosting in plain sight", little by little.

    A little about me:
    As stated in the beginning of the post, I'm 30-something, currently single, never married/no kids, live alone. As far as hobbies, my main interest has always been music. My past employment has always enabled my introverted monk ways. However, I've made a major career transition, and I foresee having to ghost in plain sight, as to avoid rousing suspicion. That's the luck of the draw, and that's where I'm at right now. It should be an interesting experience in the coming days. Either way, thanks for letting me share, guys.

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    Welcome.

    How do you see your future being improved ten years from now?

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    It's hard to say. I never predicted things would turn out the way they have. So, looking forward, I can only hope things are going good, that far ahead.

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    Welcome, brother!
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    Thanks man, glad to be here.

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    Re: I'm home!

    A good and interesting Intro, to say the least. I cringed right along with you in a few places! You have some battle scars, we see.

    Welcome!
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    Thanks, we all live and learn (best thing is, these days we can use the internet to learn from each other).

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    Good intro - welcome!
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    Re: I'm home!

    Good intro.
    Welcome to GYOW.See you on the forum.
    cheers
    "MGTOW is an extreme measure to an extreme situation"
    Quote Insidious Sid: "Some men are so MGTOW they're not even MGTOW".
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    Re: I'm home!

    Quote Originally Posted by Mgthrowaway View Post


    In 2007, I met my second and final girlfriend through mutual friends. I was 25, her, 21. As my luck would have it, she was bipolar. At the time, she was staying with her parents, but didn't get along with them. When she got kicked out of the house, I made my blue pill mistake by letting her stay with me. We clashed endlessly. Whenever I got home from work, she would pick arguments for her own amusement, mostly comparing me to her previous boyfriends/friend's boyfriends. By the way, she was going to college/working part time, and worked that angle to the fullest extent. Needless to say, I supported her financially. This granted her the opportunity to be a sit around my pad and be lazy. All she ever did was stalk her friend's/my social media for ammunition.
    That situation was a similar one that I experienced. I too was being a blue-pilled person and let this landwhale move in with me. She too felt she could just be lazy while I worked all day. She too finally got some b/s, part-time job and would use the fact she had a job against me. She would act as if that was somehow equal to what I did. I paid for everything practically.
    In the future there will be robots.

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    That feel when you're babysitting an adult size child. Nice TFM reference in the username, btw.

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    welcome

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    Quote Originally Posted by Mgthrowaway View Post
    That feel when you're babysitting an adult size child. Nice TFM reference in the username, btw.
    Oh my goodness! That is exactly what it felt like too!

    Yeah I try to listen to the TFM show when I'm at work. Thank goodness for earbuds
    In the future there will be robots.


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