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    Belated "proper intro"

    I joined up in October and haven't actually used the site much since then until recently. So apparently there is a proper way of intro'ing yourself which is fair enough, I know a lot of sites have trolls and time wasters. So lets see how this goes...

    Early Life

    I've always been going my own way in many respects to be honest. When I was at primary (grade) school, I always wanted to stay in the library during recess and lunch rather than play with the other kids. I never felt I belonged and I thought the things they liked were mostly stupid. I wanted to learn about history and read books that were supposedly way too old for me.

    I got bullied a lot and being pretty quiet I would suck it up as best I could but every now again I would explode and punch the fuck out of a bully which surprisingly (not) would buy me months more peace than just ignoring them which is the crappy advice adults give kids in regards to these things.

    So I was different and made to feel different all the time.

    Girls made me feel different too and I noticed very early on that they got away with shit that boys couldn't. I never liked the distinction with this and thought it was hypocritical as despite being a kid I was aware of politics and things like Feminism which preached the opposite, or professed to anyway.

    Asides from silly interactions with girls at this young age (I was still under 12) and being made very aware that I was not even suitable as a friend let alone anything else, a major event happened. My parents divorced when I was around 9 or 10, to cut a long story short my mother was great at making me feel even more alone. I withdrew even more. My father was hardly great either.

    Teens

    So High school begins and home life sucks. I really don't have anywhere "safe" to use a modern PC term. Whatever, I withdraw more and write, play guitar and listen to music. I don't concentrate on school at all, it doesn't make much sense to me. A lot of it is just silly and I can't see how it will help with jobs in the future.

    I don't have a girlfriend or even bother to find one. Primary school has left it's mark and I am feeling as alien as ever. Even on the very odd occasion a girl shows some interest in me it just doesn't compute, well maybe way later when it's too late. I learn there is an expiry date with female interest and it seems to be tied to their fragile egos and spite.

    I meet one girl when I am 16 and we get along really well. I like her but again, experiences earlier on have taught me that I am just not someone that girls like at all. Just having a conversation with a girl is pretty amazing to me at this stage. I am not of the Chad variety, sex is far from my mind. Looking back I can see she wanted to make out a number of times but I was just too frozen and damaged to even think about that as being a possibility.

    17

    So I reach 17 and I have led a pretty boring and odd life in many ways so far. I decide that I want to have sex but I do not want any baggage or to have to bother with a relationship or games. I hire an escort and get a crash course everything is the first time as I have never done anything sexual at all with a woman before than. I realize that although it is all very nice it is hardly as great as advertised and I wonder why people are so obsessed with this act. She leaves and I feel alone again.

    Adult life

    Very few relationships, my first girlfriend cheats on me after a week. It is a week before my 21st birthday! I still don't get people.

    I use whores mostly when I feel like it because I know it is cheaper and obviously I am a social retard, not to mention someone who doesn't like playing games or jumping through hoops. Although of the past couple of years I can't even be bothered with them. Women have changed a great deal in my lifetime. Not to say they were ever great but they were different.

    In my mid 40's now and as anti social as ever. I have left many forums I have belonged to as even bullshit on the internet is too much for me at times. My mother asked what it feels like to be 45 the other month. I thought it was a stupid question. I don't think about things like that, life is something I endure, I do what needs to be done, I seek fun of whatever kind when I want it, I work when I have to. I don't want much out of life really but I do like to be left alone.

    MGTOW

    So as stated at the start, I have always been MGTOW long before the term was coined. In terms of realizing it was a "thing" it started a few years ago when I was checking out sugar babies. There was a guy on the forum who would always drop these red pills and would mention MGTOW. I really related and the Sugar baby site was a real eye opener in terms of how women think and feel about men. For a start they have no idea how to engage a man in conversation.

    So I started checking out MGTOW online.

    Hope that is something like what you were hoping for if I missed anything just ask.
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    Re: Belated "proper intro"

    Hi Morlock,

    Thank you very much for posting this Intro. Yeah, I saw that you had posted on another thread here just today and I wondered if you had made an Intro, and here it is, and it's a good one.

    I have left many forums I have belonged to as even bullshit on the internet is too much for me at times.
    I hope our forum does not disappoint you like those others did.

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    Re: Belated "proper intro"

    Thanks, Morlock. Welcome to the forum.

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    Re: Belated "proper intro"

    For me personally people misinterpret my calm and quiet demeanor as being in a state of apathy. In truth I am very focused and most of the time most people are the ones in state of apathy. So these people will try to use socialization as a gateway to escape their apathy which I find comes off as not authentic but rather forced interaction.

    The few people I do engage in socially are the ones that are authentic and are not trying to force a conversation because they are bored or apathetic.

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    Re: Belated "proper intro"

    Quote Originally Posted by Azure Nomad View Post
    For me personally people misinterpret my calm and quiet demeanor as being in a state of apathy. In truth I am very focused and most of the time most people are the ones in state of apathy. So these people will try to use socialization as a gateway to escape their apathy which I find comes off as not authentic but rather forced interaction.

    The few people I do engage in socially are the ones that are authentic and are not trying to force a conversation because they are bored or apathetic.
    I have found the same thing. I am also slow to respond sometimes because I actually consider what the person has said or in some cases I am just deciding if I want to bother responding at all.

    I have noticed that socialization for most people is more about distraction than actually communicating with one another and forming connections. I guess that is why I shun it most of the time.


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